2006-09-11 - 12:13 p.m.

Life is too short for worrying about meaningless stuff.

Life is endings and new beginnings.

You were once born somewhere, but that does not have to dictate everything in your life.

You may have chosen something as a career path when you got out of school - but that does not have to mean that what you chose when you were 16 or 19 has to dictate the rest of your life. People change, and what looked to be the right thing to do for the rest of your life when you were 16 may not be that when you are 30 or 70. Just because you have spend 5, 10, or 30 years doing what people tell you is the greatest thing to do, that is the best job ever, does not have to mean that it is the only thing ever available to you. Even if everyone else would love what you chose to study, does not have to mean that you have anything to give to that job, that that job would have anything to give to you, or anything about anything being worth it. You know, being in constant burnout BEFORE you finish the studies might sometimes be an indication that it's not for you, or you are not for it. Finish it, finish a project, or finish getting the paper, and move on. If you are not happy, and can't make yourself happy in your daily life doing something, it's not worth it. Do something that you like, that you can respect yourself doing, for your living.

And the same is valid for people and relations. Just because your parents treated you like shit does not have to mean that everyone else would have to treat you badly for the rest of your life. Just because you were among the five weirdos all those 600 other students were like a group of chicken around you in the school does not mean that you are worthless or worth any less than they are. They may end up being no better than chicken anyway - group people, working at the local grocery or truck driver still in that same neighborhood, and do nothing but breed for their career. And just because you lived in some shitty neighborhood does not have to mean you were doomed for your life. You can change the suburbia, or get more or less urban as you desire later in your life. Just because you lived in a country does not have to mean that you have to spend the rest of your life in a country you never liked, without trying it somewhere else.

Just because one of your relations did not work out as you wished it would have does not have to mean you are worthless or the other person would be worthless. Maybe some things have the time they serve - the place you lived as a kid, maybe you had to move on; maybe the different jobs were all for serving you best for that time, and maybe sometimes all relations were not for life. Or even if they were for life and one of you just messed it up .... things still may come to an end. The summer ends, the holiday ends, the weekend ends, the day ends - there is always a new morning, new fresh week, new year, new everything. But if you keep your life accumulating things - things, people, memories, more things - around you, and never give up anything, not a single idea that has been taught to you or thought by you, you will not get anywhere. Sometimes what you need is a fresh start. Put everything you have in this life in a box, and give it away or put it aside. Maybe then you'll have what it takes for a fresh start.

And de-junking your life goes at its best in the thoughts too. If your mind is stuck in the old, it will take a lot longer for the new to be there, or to happen.

Life is not just being, buying, having, or doing.

Put your life in a box for a day, and put it aside, and enjoy the rest the way you will be then.