The nights are often not any better. It feels nicer under warm blankets, when you can sleep. But often you can't sleep, or you sleep even 14 hours per night but aren't refreshened when you wake up. Often you are still half awake very late wondering whether to try to fall asleep still like you've tried for hours or should you just guve up and make it Just One More Night With More Painkillers. Valerian root should relax a bit the muscles, and provide you a good night's sleep. More often it just keeps me awake for more hours.. so just sleep when you can, and try to make yourself as tired as you can during the day, running and keeping yourself busy, maybe that way falling asleep is easier.

Your stomach seems to hate you as much as the rest of your body does. Many of us are intolerant to some, or to a lot of things - milk, wheat, fish, .. anything. Or certain combinations of food. If I eat onion, my body will be bloated and have fever and enough stomach ache for the next 3 days to turn me nuts. Cucumbers can make me ill, sometimes melons .. last night was bad, and so was today. Probably it was the melon I had yesterday for breakfast that made my stomach look like a soccerball still after the dinner. And sometimes after a dinner you feel fine but once you are ready to go to sleep, your body just starts to hurt everywhere. Any big (read= normal sized) meals (lunch, dinner, brunch, breakfast) do that, fried food does that, and many many foods just screw your stomach.

This isn't fun. I enjoy being free of my body whenever I can. I enjoy sun burning my skin in summer, at least I'm far from the freezing pain.. I enjoy sleeping when I can sleep and not have too weird dreams. Last night in a dream I was in a big complex of buldings of which one big part collapsed (and from where I wanted to save a computer). The colder the days are, the worse I feel, and the summer is very, very gone now... days of painkillers and hot cocoa.